This article was originally published as a chapter of the Better Business Book Vol. 2,
a multi-author best-selling book series.
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I was on the phone with Albert Hughes, the Hollywood director that did The Book of Eli and other multi-million dollar films.
He had just offered me my dream job.
I was to be his right-hand on an upcoming movie. The contracts were drafted, in my inbox, waiting to be signed.
I was sitting in my tiny bedroom, staring out the window, reflecting back to a few weeks prior when we visited Joel Silber at his Home in Beverly Hills. I hadn't heard his name before but was briefed on the drive over. Apparently Joel was the producer of The Matrix series as well as many other prolific films.
When we arrived, I was in awe. I’d been in mansions before, but not like this. I was told it was a Frank Lloyd Wright original. There was a fountain in the middle of the living room, glass sculptures dangling from the ceiling and a private movie theater where we watched The Maze Runner with him and his family.
I was in.
Just a year and a half prior, I had sold the last of my belongings and took off to explore the world with my first DSLR camera and a backpack. I had just closed the doors on the agency I was running for the last 7 years and was ready to follow what I thought was my passion: film.
I gave up everything. I really thought this was what I wanted.
When we hung up the phone, I was instructed to review everything and send it back in a few days. Shortly after reading the script and the contracts though, something felt really off.
I found myself “excitedly” talking about the chance to work with actors like Denzel Washington and other A-list celebrities but realized I actually didn't care. The more I learned about the film industry, the more turned off I became.
Everyone was expected to put in absurd hours with this underlying competitive “do whatever it takes to make it to the top” energy. Everyone who had reached peak success seemed jaded to me.
Part of my reason for making such a drastic shift was to achieve more balance in my life, yet, this seemed to be at odds with the path I had chosen.
And there was this contract, awaiting my signature. I had already verbally agreed to take the job and move to London where I would live for a year but had just finished traveling extensively and really did not want to move.
At this point, I had two choices: 1. To proceed forward with the original plan and see what life had in store for me or 2. Let it go and start all over again.
I was having a hard time distinguishing whether it was my fear of the unknown or if it was, in fact, my intuition warning me. Finally, I decided if it feels that bad in my body, void of excitement, I needed to trust it.
In the back of my mind, I was dreaming of finding my life partner and somehow knew London wasn’t the place I was going to find him. After years of being completely career focused, this was the one thing I felt was missing from my life.
If anything, I knew I needed to spend less time focusing on my career and more time doing things I loved outside of work.
With each day that passed, the uncomfortable feelings inside my body increased. Finally, I had to make the call.
I asked Albert how many hours we’d be working per day, if I’d be able to get sufficient sleep and have time for balance. There was a long awkward silence on the phone. He came back and said “If you’re asking me about sleep, film is not for you.”
I knew he was right, and I knew what that meant. It meant that I was going to have to give up everything I had worked towards over the last year and the story I’d been telling everyone; that I shut my company down to follow my passion which was film. I had invested everything I had.
But, still, I had to say no. I just knew it wasn’t the right thing for me.
So there I was, in debt, with no money in the bank and had to figure out what to do next.
This was one of those moments where my ego and my intuition were not getting along very well. But it wasn’t the first time I’d done something that seemed crazy either, like shutting down my agency during our best year ever.
I guess I’ve learned that listening to my intuition, no matter how scary or illogical it seems, always leads to something better. The universe responds well when we act with courage.
A branding contract popped up out of nowhere to support my transition while I planned my next steps. And about a month later, I was guided to the path of digital products.
Knowing the possibilities, I set the goal of creating a fully passive income business so I would have time for yoga and meditation, for a relationship and balance. And within a few months, it all started to come true.
I was able to create a 5-figure/mo. digital products business, meet my soulmate (who I’ve now married) and created the life of true freedom I’d always wanted.
The universe is programmed with supreme intelligence and knows exactly where to guide you but we have to be willing to listen and take action, even when it feels scary or unsafe.
Jim Carrey shared that “So many of us choose our path as fear disguised as practicality.” If we rely too much on logic, we miss the whole point of this life experience. We are here to play, to explore, to grow and expand.
We don’t always know our purpose right away, sometimes it takes a bit of trial and error. As long as we don’t get hung up on failure or other people’s ideas of success, we can move forward with faith and confidence.
We are always being led. We always know what to do next.
Remember that and you’re well on your way to everything you desire.